Tethered in Place

A few months ago, I saw the parable of the elephant. In this simple short story, we find out that a small elephant is tethered by a rope to a post. As the elephant grows it could easily break the rope with its powerful limbs but it never does. The elephant has gotten so used to being tethered to that spot that even if painful or uncomfortable things happen it endures and doesn’t realize or comprehend that it had an option to break free.

Eight years ago, I tethered myself to an idea and decided that I was going to accomplish a particular thing in life (getting a PhD). The first 5 years went by and the journey had its ups and downs but was fulfilling enough. Three and a half years ago, things started to unravel as I started to listen to my heart, body, intuition, and find the joy in just being in the present moment. The last 3 years, I have had the privilege of working with a talented yoga teacher/energy worker, Kate Garland, who has helped me to become a different person who is lighter and more in tune with my essence/spirit.

This week during an energy work session, I realized that I had been enduring and pushing to accomplish something that I no longer found joy in and wasn’t serving me. I had tethered myself to accomplishing a thing and was pushing hard to do it without fully considering or comprehending that I had a choice. My life or future happiness didn’t depend on doing this thing but I had just kept pushing myself to do it. During a relaxing spine twisting yoga class today with Kate, my mind began to relax as I focused on the rhythmic nature of my breath. My body began to twitch as it sank into a deep state of relaxation near the end of class. As I laid on my mat, I could feel a rope tethered to my right leg. The rope wasn’t tight but it made its presence known, the story of the elephant flowed into my consciousness. Like the elephant, I have grown into a different and more powerful being but hadn’t had the courage or awareness before this point to break free from this particular rope. I am now holding the knife in my hand and preparing to take a deep breath and sever the rope. The idea of being free is scary but exhilarating at the same time.

Frayed Rope about to Break

I know my story is not unique and that others are being tethered by ideas, thoughts, stories, and beliefs that are holding them back. You may not see the ropes now but I can guarantee you they are there and that you are not alone. I can’t tell you how to find the ropes that are holding you back but I can say that having a talented teacher/energy worker is definitely worth every penny and the time spent with them will be very beneficial. I have devoted a lot of time to seeing these ropes and part of me is embarrassed to share the struggle but I think it is important to create this type of dialogue so that others are encouraged and feel less alone in their journey.

Magic of Ordinary Things

Yoga has taught me to breathe, act with intention, and to see the magic in ordinary things.

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Walking through a garden and looking closely at the blooms can be refreshing when I  clear my mind of the daily to-do list. As I breathe and realize that there is no other place I want to be in that moment, things start to open up. Being present in the moment seems like a forgotten art. I  have wondered at times if I would even notice a fairy if they existed. As my practice of being has deepened, I have seen the beauty in wood grain, the pollen dusted on the inside of a flower, the coloring of a pebble, and other ordinary things. I am grateful for the beauty that is now apparent to me.

 

My Yoga Love Letter

If I were to write a love letter to my yoga teacher. . . I would start by telling her how much she helps to make me a better and healthier person. . .

She has guided me on how to set up a daily practice to overcome the aches and pains caused by office/cubicle life, her early teachings helped me to focus on my breath and feeling in my body so that I could sense the effect and release of tension caused by the different poses.

She also emphasized that Yoga is more than poses or exercise . . . Yoga is a way of connecting to your spirtual side regardless of your religion or faith . . .  Yoga is allowing your breath to calm you and stop the fight or flight instinct that fills our body with stress. . .  Yoga is bringing your life into balance by spending time in nature and getting away from life in front of the screen.

Why do I love working with her?
Her willingness to share her personal stories of perseverance, overcoming struggles with health problems, relationships, and finding balance in her life through the use of essential oils, yoga, and energy work. She lights up and you feel a sense of candidness, sincerty, and genuineness.

What makes my teacher unique?
She has guided me and helped me to see how experiences from the past/early childhood are affecting me today so that I can change my behavior and see that the old stories I used to believe about myself or the world may not be true and  could be sabotaging my growth. These deep insights are priceless and trigger my personal growth. Breaking the connection to the past is often key to moving forward.

 

Feel to Heal

As a child my parents didn’t express a lot of emotions so I never learned how to express them. As an adult this has led to me holding things in and bottling up my emotions. I have been meditating and doing energy work with my yoga teacher to become more comfortable feeling and expressing emotions.

I read the passage below and it spoke to me. . .

Be Vulnerable!

Cry a little, Cry a lot and Cry your heart out once in a while!

Don’t let the mind delude you to build a tough wall around the heart to make you feel safe, that’s just fear/aversion to pain masquerading as strength/toughness.

Feel the pain
Embrace the feeling
Slowly magical healing happens within
Then comes the real strength
Strength to be a beacon of healing for others.

Let’s pledge to be vulnerable around each other.

Feel to Heal!